The Song of Being a Child
Peter Handke (trans, me)
As the child was a child,
It went about with arms hanging,
thought the brook was a river,
the river, a torrent,
and this puddle, the Sea.
As the child was a child,
It didn’t know it was a child,
everything was given a soul,
and all souls were one.
As the child was a child,
it had no opinion about anything,
it had no habits,
it often sat tailor-fashion,
ran from a standing start,
had a cowlick in its hair,
and had no “face” for photographs.
As the child was a child,
it was the time for these questions:
Why am I me, and why not you?
Why am I here, and why not over there?
When did Time start, and where does Space end?
Is life under the Sun not just a dream?
Is what I see and hear and smell
not just a reflection of a world behind the world?
Does Evil really exist, and are there people
who really are evil?
How can it be that I, me,
before I appeared, was not,
and that the I that I was once
will no longer be me?
As the child was a child,
it choked on spinach, on peas, on rice pudding
and on steamed cauliflower,
and now eats them all, and not just when forced.
As the child was a child,
it woke up once in a strange bd,
and now again and again,
it saw many beautiful people,
now, just by luck;
made everything a Paradise,
and now, at most, suspects
it cannot think of Nothing
and shudders at the thought.
As the child was a child,
it played with enthusiasm,
as it does now, but only when
it’s not work.
As the child was a child,
An apple and bread were food enough,
and so, even now.
As the child was a child.
the strawberries in its hand were just strawberries,
and so, even now.
The fresh walnuts made its tongue raw,
and so, even now;
On every mountain it longed
to see an even higher mountain,
and in every city it longed
to see an even greater city,
and so, even now;
attacked the treetops in joy, seeking cherries
just as it does today,
feared every stranger
just as it does today,
waited for the first snow,
and waits so, even now.
As the child was a child,
it threw a stick, like a spear, into the tree
and it quivers there, even today.